Lullaby

I whisper a lullaby into the night,

I let it leave my lips like a breath of air,

I pray to some unknown deity that it reaches the cusp of your ear,

And I wait.

My head pounds and my heart throbs,

I write down words of love and kindness

I write down the words you deserve

And I wait.

Legs crossed and arms folded

I survey the damage you’ve done to yourself,

And I feel agony that I’ve never sensed before enter my heart and stop at the doors to my soul,

And I wait.

I survive through pure will alone,

And I wonder as I dust myself off and brush my fingers over tender cuts,

Did you hear my whispers travelling on the wind?

Or must I wait more for you to feel loved again?

I hollow out my cheeks and breathe in your memory,

Because I know you’ll be a memory now

A good memory that ends so brutally but a memory all the same,

No question this time, I’ll wait, I’ll wait.