Scream

I want to scream until my lungs give out

I want to never talk again

I’d rather sit in pure untainted silence

Than have another one of these conversations in my head.

If I look up there is only a starry sky

And sometimes,

Sometimes there are no stars

Only a darkness that stretches as far eternity but is always out of my reach.

I’ve never been good at goodbyes

But I find I’m getting better

With each person I say it to

I feel a little bit freer to scream into the terrifying eternal night.

I also find that with every hour that I breathe in through my greedy lungs

I find myself coming back to life

Slowly at first, slowly then all at once,

I have all the friends I’ll ever need stop saying I need a man to complete me.

I’m not going to put myself out in the open anymore

Funnily enough it’s one of the worst things I could ever do

So I’m going to suck in a deep breath and hold it in my lungs

And I’m going scream into the darkness;

And I'm going to wait for it to scream back.